忘了跟好朋友说生日快乐。
对不起。
耳边经过的音乐实在太多。于是，变得一团乱。
我不喜欢混乱，喜欢思路清晰。
只有这样才能滔滔不绝，为我所用。
所以，喜欢整理，整理思绪。
但是，太过感性，所以总是整理不出头绪。
还是，依旧一片混乱。
但是，还是认为只有整理过，才是真正自己的东西。
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今天已是二十四号。
二十九号回校。
生活进入了低潮。
永远都是一个人在家的状态。
例行做完全部的家务。
于是，开始空虚。
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有些事情只能睁一只眼闭一只眼，因为不能够去改变什么，而且改变也是没有意义的。
爸爸的身体似乎一直在出现状况，我只是沉默地听着，不知道该怎么办。
天生懒惰的人因为背负着责任和爱而艰难地走在这条所谓的人生道路上。别无选择。
我不再强求他们放下负担，因为其实自己也早已扛上。
依然不会做菜，依然懒懒地躲在家里半步不出。
于是告诉自己，如果以后还想过这样的生活，现在就要加倍努力。
我不想为生计太过奔波。
所以，必须付出得更多。
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《蓝色大门》里，小士对孟克柔说，夏天就要过去了，可是好遗憾，好像什么都没有做。
踩在夏天的尾巴上，一定很疼。
所以趁这个夏天还没有结束，做一些有意义的事情吧。
逃避，就是长大的代价吗？
我还不知道。就当我还没有长大吧。
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看着电视里充斥着的奥运报道，很难过。
如果当时考到了北京，或许现在，我也是那些志愿者里的一个吧。
或许，我就可以在这个夏天，在北京的大街小巷里穿梭，用自己的方式去为奥运加油。
而我只能坐在这里，什么都不能做。
两年之后，我真的能在那里吗？
Please,Bless me.
- 上一篇：la vie en rose
- 下一篇：你好吗？
And now the end is near
And so I face the final curtain
My friends I'll say it clear
I'll state my case of which I'm certain
I've lived a life that's full
I traveled each and every highway
And more much more than this
I did it my way
Regrets, I've had a few
And then again too few to mention
I did what I had to do
Though I saw with through without exemption
I planned each chartered course
Each careful step along the by-way
And more much more than this
I did it my way
Yes there were times
I'm sure you knew
When bit off more than I could chew
But through it all
When there was doubt
I ate it up, and spit it out
I faced it all and I stood tall
And did it my way
I've loved, I've laughed and cried
I had my fill, my share of losing
And now as tears subside
I find it all so amusing
To think I did all that
And may I say not in a shy-way
Oh no, oh no not me
I did it my way
For what is a girl?
What has she got?
If not herself, then she has not
To say the things she truly feels
And not the words of one who kneels
The record shows I took the blows
And did it my way
